Its hurting me . So hard .
Thursday, November 15, 2012 | 0 little sweet note [s]
I lay in my bed and think about You. I love You so much and I dont know what to do. The pain in my heart moves to my eyes :'( I await the time we can talk. I await the times we can finally hold hands and walk. To feel You for real, so close to me. I await the times when my hands is in Yours and to hear You say those three little words. There are still no words I can say to describe my feelin. My heart is aches and my eyes they cry. Even thought You arent here and I miss You so much. All the night conversation between us, the laughter, the tears, and all the silly jokes. All that things make me happy deep inside. Hurm but now everything changed. Where this no honesty in this relantionship. You already promised for a many times, You said sorry again again and again. But You did the same thing again again and again. Im sorry because I lied to You. Its my first lie from me to You. And You get angry so hard. How about all the lied You did all this time? You said sorry and I forgave You. But You said You will never forgive me because lied to You for the first time? :') Yaaa it so hurt to hear that but what can I say? I did the same thing like You did to me. I never mean it. And it end with nightmare. Just like usual, no text, no call. NOTHING! Wake up every morning without getting a text from You, sleep every night without getting a call from You. Hurmm. But Im still breathing here and missing You so badly.